I ‘ve had the idea/desire for this blog for a long time. But fear of exposure always held me back, and my texts remained simply stored on a hard disc. What shall I write? And who will read them? How much of myself can I get out? How much can I expose myself to not feel psychologically pressured?
I’m generally an introvert person. Although seemingly social, I deeply hold many things and elements of myself for myself or even my very own people.
I don’t easily reveal my thoughts and I certainly filter words and actions. Shyness or fear of negative criticism; Probably both. So how could I publicly express my thoughts, my feelings, write about what I believe, what I love and am afraid of?
I confess that this is difficult for me. I find myself thinking many times about who will read my texts and how they can interpret them. Is it too personal? Do they give me a big chunk out? Should I make my posts more general?
But then I would sacrifice the quality of what I want to create surrendered to my fears and insecurities. I would be locked up in a sheltered but cold and lifeless shell.
This is not what I was dreaming of in this blog. My goal was and remains to show my true self, to share authentic thoughts and feelings so that the one who chooses to read my texts can associate with me and connect with this page and with me mentally and spiritually. How can I claim a position in other people’s lives if I am not willing to open the door and reveal my true personality?
And can one finally control what others really think? Criticism is a normal process of the brain and will inevitably happen. The question is how can I manage my fear of exposure and deal with my own thoughts about it.
So I think that if I let this social phobia overwhelm me, how much I will have deprived myself; first I will have sacrificed my self-esteem and self-confidence, which I have been building for 35 years; I also think that only if you truly express what You feel and believe, then it is possible for the one who judges you to be able to get to know you and understand you better.
I try to control my stress, to become more assertive in my desires but also to claim equal relationships with others, to eliminate the procrastination and submissiveness to which this fear leads me.
I try to write boldly, truly and authentically what I think. My love for writing and my enthusiasm for my own Lifestyle My is stronger than the fear of what anyone might think and I want this page to present content with substance, content that will have value for the reader.
I was looking for a long time to discover something that I am passionate about (see here) and while I actually knew what it was, I was oppressing it because of insecurity.
I just had to take the step and get out of my own Comfort Zone to discover that when you do something you love, you feel mentally full and happy. I love this blog because it is my creation, I put time, love, and a lot of work and yet I don’t feel tired.
On the contrary, I look forward to finding time every day, even if it’s late (very late) at night, to work on it, to improve it, and to make it a reference point for people with a common way of thinking, common interests and generally for those who choose to follow it.
Don’t let your fear of exposure hold you back on your dreams. Because in the end, what makes you happy doesn’t need approval from anyone.